I turned eighteen this month. Last year I would say that as soon as I turned eighteen I would leave. I was going to be all rebellious. (imagine that) It did not turn the way I had planned it. I am still at home and under my mother’s control.
Quite a few of my friends have changed this year. They are into smoking and drinking. Screwing around with the opposite sex does not even make them the slightest bit guilty. They do not stick out anymore. They follow the crowd.
My confession, I want to be a rebel. One day one of my co-workers said it is always best to try something at least once. Those are NOT good words to live by, but they are tempting. I want to see what the world has to offer. I want to try smoking. I want to know what beer tastes like. What if I die before I marry someone? I will never know what sex is like. What if I die and miss out on all these things the world has to offer?
I want to trust God that He will give me what I need. I want to be able to stick out from the world. Why have I followed the crowd so many times? When more opportunities come up, I want the courage to say no. I am scared I will fail again. Sometimes when I want to feel loved I bend my values. What with happen
Lord, I am waiting for You. Give me the strength to not become of this world. Jesus, give me the courage to stand up for You! God, I need You to help me fight these temptations! Give me a clear head. Give me a heart that will give glory to You!
Crying for strength,
Em
Psalm 73:25 “Who have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.”
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You are very vulnerable in your blogs. That's so cool. I too have felt this way before (..and still do once in a while). It's so tempting to be like the world. To try everything at least once. I mean like you said....what if I die before I am able to experience some of these things?? But just think. The things of this world are all pointing to something better. Marriage here on this earth is only a small glimpse of what it will be like in heaven. Therefore, dying will only be the completion of our longings here on this earth.
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