Today I watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2.
In the movie Tibby broke up with her boyfriend. One of her friends asked why and she didn't know what to say. I guess you could say I am somewhat like Tibby because of what she said next. See like her I get scared when I start to be happy. I am know as the person who always has a problem in life and is never happy. When I tell my friends I am doing amazing they have to question it.
I am scared to be happy. Even more than before. Last summer I was happy. I don't know if it was true happiness, but I learned to trust someone. At the end of summer the happiness left. It wasn't supposed to leave. I was supposed to be happy forever. All the trust I put into one person was gone.
I don't want to be happy cause happiness never stays even if you think it will. I want to have joy though so I can go through hard times and happy times, but still have...a hope to move on. I am sick of being let down. I am sick of wallowing after I am let down.
I am alot like Tibby, but I want to stop. I want to be like Emily Elizabeth Voye. Who ever she is.
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she's an amazing person. she's very ambitious and ready to live extreme ;)
my heart breaks for you. God made us to be happy. but we will never find true happiness apart from Him. God is the only one who can fill that empty void in our hearts. and guess what? the best part is: HE will NEVER disappoint us. no matter how much we mess up God will always be right there for us with open arms.
love you so much!
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